Justwantedgyrl

Justwantedgyrl

Just wanted.

And I am that’s the thing, but I want more.  I crave more.  I am an independent woman with no female best friends.  Just one best friend that’s male and I think he’s falling in love with me.  I may be wrong but the way he’s been acting lately is really showing me otherwise.  So, example here, I’ve been pushing him away.  He feels it, I know he does and it hurts him but the days where we could have dated have long passed.  I love him to death but I have to have my boundaries.  Maybe from being alone for so long I’ve grown accustomed to the ‘single’ life.  The selfish life of living for myself, pleasing only myself, taking care of only myself…..emphasis on “pleasing” myself.  I say that because this falls back into the ‘wanted’ category. I love to please others and this in turn makes me feel ‘wanted’.  I see now more as I write this….will reflect

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First blog post….Well second

First blog post….Well second

Undiscovered still…..this is actually my second post.  I’m new to blogging but need a new outlet to tell my secrets to that I can’t tell n e one. Not even my therapist.  That must sound awful that someone would feel comfortable telling complete strangers about their lives but can’t tell a single soul around them.

I don’t currently have a boyfriend but am dating, would actually put myself in the category of ‘promiscious’.  I love sex. Since I’ve been single for so long I’ve become selfish and what is cliché.  It’s true, all true, the single lives out there.  They are cliché and don’t let anyone tell you different.  It may start out different but soon if you stay single long enough all the clichés come true.

Which brings me back to my first point…undiscovered still.  Just wanted.  Just needed.